Day Three No Facebook

Yesterday broke my heart. I started out my day by getting ready and just snuggling with my girl. I had zero clue that a huge earthquake and tsunami had completely devastated Japan. I went downstairs and saw that my mom had called my cell phone. Her voice mail was so sad, the worry that was in that message was heartbreaking. I had no idea I had anything to worry about, and my poor mom was worried that a tsunami would take me out. To be honest where I live here in Escondido a tsunami would not do anything to us. Where I was working yesterday was a different story. I was only 2 miles away from the coast. Praise God that it did not hurt us here in San Diego. Praise God it really did not hurt anyone here in the US. I pray that the families that have suffered amazing losses in Japan will have the hope of Jesus. I can't imagine the mothers with their babies in their arms crying and praying just to simply survive.

I did read this morning that earth's axis has moved and that Japan's coastline moved 8 miles. That is crazy to me. But when I think that God barely had to move a finger to make that happen it makes me love him that much more. This is an all knowing and powerful God. He can do or make anything happen. He is my hero. I also went out to see what bible prophecy has to say about this event. People, we are in the end times. With the events that are occurring in the Middle East, Russia getting more powerful, and the crazy fires, floods, weather and earthquakes. I pray everyone's heart is ready.

I spoke to my husband quite frankly this morning as well regarding our boys eternal life. I am so worried about them. They say they believe that Jesus is the Son of God, they state that they believe he died and rose again for their sins but beyond that I see no fruit. To me this is what we should see in a believer. Who am I to even try to say who is going to be in the Kingdom with me, but there are times that I get so worried about that. To be honest I would rather them fail a class, then fail eternity. I told Steve without hesitation that I do not want them to go to Hell. He really did not say much in return but I do think he heard me.

I took the time yesterday to read the Parable of The Sower. So powerful, and when you think about the fact that God took the time to soften our hearts/dirt so that we would take the seed/the Gospel and it would grow in us, you love him that much more. He chose us! Can you believe he chose you or me? I can't! I can't even imagine that Jesus, as he hung on that cross, knew my name and knew every sin I would commit and died for me anyway! WOW!!!!He knew my pettiness, he knew my selfishness, he knew everything and he loved me enough to die for me. I also had it pointed out that I am his inheritance. I am so sorry Jesus, no kid wants a lump of coal for their inheritance and that is exactly what I feel like he is getting in me. I want so badly to be the diamond that would be a much better inheritance, and I can't be. I was cursed with sin before I was even conceived (Thanks A Lot you wicked woman Eve) It is only by God's grace that I am even able to think about Heaven. If I got what I deserved it would be so horrible. I would have been zapped long ago.

Today I read the first 5 Chapters of the Book of Revelation. I can't wait for Jesus to come back for me. I cry almost every time I think about bowing at my savior's feet. I will be that woman crying on his feet and washing them with my tears and hair. When I see the things he has given me here on this earth and think about how much more he has for me in Heaven I can barely catch my breath. God has blessed and protected me at so many points in my life.

Steve did go to the Doctor this past week. He had blood drawn on Friday. The poor guy did not eat all day, he was so hungry when he got home. So far his ALT (Liver Enzymes) are a bit high and his iron is low. All of this could be due to the Arthritis. He has an appointment next week with the Rheumatologist to start a treatment for the arthritis. I pray that God will guide the physicians hands. There are times I wish Jesus would give me the gift of healing him and I could just whack him in the forehead and command the pain to go away, but I can't. (Do you think he would let me try, I could at least bop him in the head!?!?!?! HA HA HA HA!!))

I miss Facebook so much right now. Only because I really miss knowing what is happening in my friends lives. On the other hand I love knowing that my relationship with my Lord and Savior is getting strength.

I am so proud of the Wisconsin Government. I totally feel like they are taking the want of the people that elected them and putting it in to action. They are working towards a balanced budget. My Grandmother was a "scab" in the 70's when her union shop went on strike. My Grandma being the strong woman that she was, looked at all of the people giving her a hard time and told them she needed her job and her salary, she was only in the union because she had to be. HMMMMMMMMM only because she had to be. She had no control over where that money went! Doesn't that sound like legalized theivery? If a person doesn't want to be in a union they shouldn't have to be, especially if they have no say as to where the money ends up. There was a time for Union's but that time is gone. The NFL Union to me is ridiculous. WHY? Isn't that what sports agents are for? They make more than enough to have top of the line physicians and everything else, that is a public union and it is not like our roads are going to fall apart if the football players don't work.

My daughter is still my best little buddy. I love her heart for God. The other day she was watching Beauty and the Beast and the Beast got quite upset and started turning tables over and growling. She was so cute, her response to this was "He needs God mommy, he wouldn't be so mad." I thank God for her everyday.